another messy thought #2

today's absolutely not my day. I feel like everyone pump my anger from I open my eyes until now. my mom, dad, bestfriends and friends....they're just act like a ?!?!?! errrr or maybe I'm just too childish in responding all of this. sorry. but now I really really wanna cry. why my life's getting confusing, sadder, harder each day? I just want my old life back please. no one could understand me lately, everyone was busy with their own business. I feel like everyone has left me and not to care about me at all. this's not a good feeling.

I don't even know if 'that' was my fault, his fault, or anyone fault, which I know is he had changed, and today I'm officially missing him. *random paragraph*

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xxoxx

glimpse of happiness

hello readers....uhm it's been almost a month I didn't update this blog hahahha actually I have so much to share but I'm just too busy and too lazy xixixiix kayyyy now let me share some stories in this post

first I wanna post about my short vacation with my gurls, I got a week's holidays from school then I was planning to enjoy four days with them in Bali. it was so freakin fun freakin crazy freakin cool. I like to spend my days with them...they are my classmates (nova, ijen, ara)

second I wanna post about My World Tour Indonesia. finally I could see Justin Drew Bieber directly!!!! eventho I can't take some picture with him or meet and greet with him HFFF still disappointed but it's okay at least I've seen him live hohoohoh. the concert was super awesome. sure. no lie. it was super cool. his dance, his voice, the way he talk it's so funny, the way he plays guitar, the way he plays drum. it's BEAST! aaaa I really really wanna talk with him. please come back as soon as possible. and let me have a quality time with you (jb).

that's all

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xxoxx

obsessed depressed at the same time

hello there! I'm bored here hehehe. so let me post some messy thought here kay? I don't know exactly what I want, I mean what I really want. sometimes I want to have boyfriend but actually I don't want it HUFFF. I don't want a boyfriend, I just want a boy-friend. who can cheer me up, makes me feel safe, always comfort me, and I don't need to pretend to be someone else when I'm with him. is it so grandiose? but surely it's so damn hard to find. I have so many best girl-friend but sometimes I think like.....'I need to have a best boy-friend too' cause girls and boys thought are different. hey my best boy-friend come back please. I desperately need you. I just can't stand it any longer, I miss you so...I know we haven't seen each other even just for a while but you're the only one I wish I could forget. I don't want anyone else to have you. so many boys who have approached me but no one ever made me feel this way like you did.

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xxoxx

march of mine

it's been a month I didn't update this blog ehehehe actually I have so many stories that I wanna share but sometimes I just too lazy to write or I don't have much time to share on this blog, kay...finally I got my days off from school!!!! eventho it was only 10 days. I hate it when I have to go to school on my day off agggh it's kinda interrupt my day off!!!

first, I thought that march will be a good month for me but on this year march was not as good as I've thought before but I hope it will be pretty good in the end of march. so many people around me who was born on march and I must spend lots of my money for their gift but it doesn't matter as long as they happy because of me hehehehe. anyway hello april please be awesome!

second, justin bieber my worlds tour at Indonesia on 23 April 2011. please god give me lots of luck on the online ticket sales. I want meet him so badly, wish that I could get VVIP ticket or meet and greet or be one in a million girl who could sing with him on his stage or anything at least I could meet him.

and that's all part of my march, dunno why I like to post my monthly thought on this blog hehehhe thanks for still read this blog. you could stalk my thought on these blog....heehhee

enjoy readers!

as usual sorry for the miserable grammer

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how precious we are

everyone are precious. more more more precious than diamonds, so please from now all of you have to be yourself, no need to pretend to be someone else, cause if you pretend to be someone else that will make you worthless. we can't see it but other people can see it. don't be pushed by your problems but be strong by your problems, don't fall asleep by your dreams but be led by your dreams. kay? believe that god has made an awesome plan for us.

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sorry for ugliness grammer

keep precious readers

xxoxx

another messy thought

anyone still read this messy blog? yeah you're! I wanna share somethin but maybe this's useless. many people say that high school's very enjoyable, but it's not for me or the happiness not come yet to me, sometimes I feel like life in high school's so cruel and mean or maybe I was wrong to choose this school agggh forget it. I just hate 'their' two face, 'their' hypocritical and the most I hate is when 'they' always want to be the best and perfect, just keep slow please. and till now I'm still don't know who's my real friends on my high school cause they're all confusing. that's enough.

I never felt like this before, I admit...I really miss how things used to be. but I can also admit, that I've accepted the fact that things changed! you've changed too! to be honest I'm still waiting for impossible to happen and it's really sucks. I know I was wrong too fall with wrong boy but it all happened naturally. only time will tell and just let the god set everything cause only god who knows what is the best for us, I believe god has prepared a wonderful prince for me :3 uuhhhm and one more thing that I wanna share, I really like seeing my big brothers with their girlfriend (dunno why), please make it be their last love and keep it up bigbro.

byee see you on another messy post, sorry for the ugliness grammer xxoxx

ne-yo concert

ne-yo

the towel

HELLO! let me tell you about ne-yo concert, ne-yo concert 22-01-2011 was totally super awesome!!!! till now I just can't believe I saw ne-yo directly, he throws some roses and towel to the audience, and I get the towel, though fighting with another audience and eventually the towel on the cut to be 5 pieces but I'm still happy. he sang a lot of my favorite songs, and all artists on the opening at concert was very cool too (soulvibe, maliq n d'essentials and ELLO!!!!) the dj sucessfully rockin the concert. ♥͡˛♥͡