a little girl who wants to become a princess

heyyya sorry for not updating these blog for so long, actually quite a lot of thing I wanna write here but I dunno whether I deserve it or not to write that things in here and happy holidayyyys all! how's your vacation plan? my vacation plan is I wanna go to spore with my brother and I hope it will be fun. amen

anyway now I'm wondering why should I know him? why he should say that things to me? WHY? it just makes me expect him too much. but with soft sentences yesterday he had answered all the things on my mind!!! he told me "I wanna be you friend forever" do you think I would be glad if u say that? NO! absolutely no, surely I kinda wanna be his princess. do u get what I really mean? and it's all because previously he had said "someday you might even become my princess" don't ever you make a promise with a little girl if u don't really wanna make it happen, cause it would make her dream too far and futile. now I just want to let all the feeling go.

thanks for read these blog! bye have a great holiday readers!

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hello how's your saturday and your sundaynight? uhhhm my saturday was so flat but I was pleased with this. dont know why this internet connection working soooo slow and it's damaging these night and also my mood. really really dont know what to do, I feel so hfgweudsndaj and I think only tumblr who can translate hdhewdgiaeh but tumblr say 'we'll be back shortly' aaaaaaa it's caused by now a lot of people useing tumblr. so many thoughts running on my mind but I dont know for sure what I really think, and people usually call it 'galau' HAHAHAHHA. am I galau tonight? hah?.....

NOW! let me tell you about......I DON'T KNOW ABOUT WHAT anyway WAKOAKWOAKOWKA. school, homework, exam and many more are makes me so stress out uuuuh please teacher be nice to your student, your student need a rest!!!! I'm not an angel! I'm only a teen girl! please understand me :3 aaaaa like u read this ┐(˘˘,)┌ but I'm very grateful to Allah cause u give me a uber family not super again, super isn't enough, it's moreeee than super!!! and I had a super great friends too but till now I dont know who's the real friend and who's not (•̯͡.•̯͡)

that's all thankyou for read these post and sorry if u get bored and these post waste your time. smoooch

not in all areas you must be number one

heyyy! do u know whattt? you can't be perfect! please GET A LIFE! let's open your eyes sweety, just because your score difrent 0,something you get angry all day long? come on we're young, just enjoy this school and don't take it too serious, I believe that life will not be forever succeed, we will surely fail, and if you take everything too seriously when you fail you will be very angry and disappointed, righttt? I dont hate you I'm just annoyed with your behavior, you told me that you hate to people who behave like that, but what???? you like what you hate. be careful with your mouth! honestly, I'm so tired school in a class like that, I'm tireddddd, all of them said "I hate the people who blablabla" but in fact??? they do what they 'say' that they hate and without feeling guilty AHHHH what do u want sih?

thankyou for read this messy post. sorry I'm imperfect but I'm PERFECTLY me!

not a good beginning of the month

hello how are u? I'm not fine because I'm sick and absent from school today, I was sick because of too tired, but this week will be more more tiring than last week, so it means I have to get well very soon. aaaaa I'm bored, too many things that I think, I want to go to school. hopefully tomorrow I have no sick and can go to school as usual. just dont know what to do. the atmosphere is very quiet but sound in my head very crowded. feels like my head is ready to explode and my heart too.

eeyore

heyyya readerrrs! how's your day? anyway mid's overrrr. and tmrrw me and maa brothaa refreshing together andddd it was so fabulous it was sooooo FUN. i love tmrrw. big thanks to my brothaaa. but today i dont want to discuss about that, i want telling you about my lovely eeyore!!!! since long long time ago i really really want to tell you about it but i dont have enough idea. let's start!!!! look at that picture. they're my heart i love them lyk so damnnnn much. dont know why i love eeyore eventho my friends told me that eeyore has a stupid face hahahaha and i do think so. I WANT EEYORE I WANT I WANT ITTT but it's very difficult to find eeyore because eeyore is not the main character. if u find eeyore please let me know. i will pick him up hahahhaha.........for sure i still dont have enough idea to tell you about eeyore. I'm just too loved my eeyore HAHAHHAHA

dankeee readers sorry for wasted your time :-)

midterm test

since I got home from school I've been drinking 3 glasses of milk. now I feel nauseous and dizzy...how stupid am I righhht? today until next week I got midterm test from school and it would be very very tiring week for me. anyway anyway anyway tmrrw test are math and religion and I'm too lazy to study. mygosssh surely I'm the laziest girl on my class. I think. see? now I'm stuck in front of my laptop while the "bookssss" already waiting for me to touch them. what should I do nowww? anyway I miss freedom! I need holidayssss, bunch of pleasure, and everything that can make me feel happy. byee......gonna trying to study ffffffuh!!!!!

dankeeee readerrrs! :-)

nothing

hell-o nothing to do. nothing to write. nobody to share. today's the 1st day I started school after eid holidays and not really bad buttt not very well too. for sure. no lie. I don't hate school....I'M JUST TIRED TO COMPLY WITH THESE RULES AND MUST DO SOMETHING I DON'T WANNA DO! I DON'T LIKE! AND I CAN'T! I'M TIRED OF BEING A STUDENT. ohmyyyy please bring me back to the first day of holidays!?!?!?! honestly I felt unworthy to be part of science class. sorry mom dad I really really want to make you proud of me but I'm too lazy to study all night long. but why you make me feel so guilty? cause you always give me what I want while I can't give you the best. senior high school still not as beautiful as 'they' say

bytheway happy eid readerssss!

and please forgive me for all mistakes I've made

dankeeee! :-)

such a fool girl

how stupid am I? cause I love the way he lied to me. I knew he was lying on me. I know he loves someone else. I know he came to me only when he needs me. but see what? I'm still hoping for something that will never come. honestly I hate being second to those I put first but dont know why I've tried for the countless time to hate him but see? still not working right? he never be mine but why he cant out of my head. I tell myself not to be afraid to move on but my heart keeps saying don't let him go. he was doing too much...he got a girl anyway, I cant explain it neither. it's so hard to walk away when I remember him. FOREVER DOESN'T EXIST (not for anybody)

thankyou bloogie (:

happy sweet 16th

hello on 24 August, I stepped to 16th. the day before my birthday, my mother gave me a macpro. I'm very pleased. usually every year if there's a birthday in my family must be given a surprise at 00 o'clock at night ..... but I dont get it. while I'm at school so many friends who sang the 'happy birthday' song. after I left school I went to bed and sleep until break fasting, at the time of break fasting I felt weird because my mom prepared a lot of food and dishes, and when I returned to my room there was 'someone' who knock on my door and they are.....my friends, and I was very surprised by them eventho I've predicted this before. then we break the fast together and we got back to my room and take some picture together, and something just happened on my bed. These things I'll never forget. eventho they destroyed my bed but I still love them.

Another surprise came from my beloved XA, we held a break fast together at syanin's, after break fasting they give a surprise to the august birthday (daus, arya, eman and me). This is very unexpected pleasant as this. then we all cebur-ceburan (I dont know the english ehe ehe ehe) in the pool. we play an hour on the pool, after that we all showered and cut the cake. I feel sad because now im not in the same class with them, they're too cool!!! I couldn't lose them, I want in the same class with them again. I miss XA! I love you guys!

I'm speechless, I don't know what to do, my birthday was extremely funnnnn because of them. I'm very thankful to my friend who gave me a surprise and to my family who have given me a special gift and love. thanks to Allah you gave me a wonderful life, perfect family, good friends, and everything

thanks bloogie ({})

how I met physics

on the previous post I already told you that I'm in a replications week, and this week is the hardest week. I had physics test today. I'm not sure about my answer, I'm just hoping for a miracle. I know I'm very stupid in physics, since I was born and met physics I was not good in this lesson. now I really don't know what to do to save my score, during the test I really really want to cry but I remember that tears can't help me and I'm fasting so I'm not allow to cry. so now I call physics becomes physicks cause this lesson makes me sick yeah yeah yeah now I'm going crazy. and feel so tired of school. I'm tired of being a student!!!!!

thanks bloogie. you want to read my whining words (:

friend

sometimes I feel annoyed when I saw my friend have a new friend and they're closer with their new friends than with me, this may sound weird. what do you feel the same? maybe this all happened because I didn't want to lose a friend. I feel if they have a new friend they're getting away from me and probably within a certain period they'll actually disappear. but I believe they're always by my side, they're always there for me eventho distance separates us. friend means a lot in my life journey. maybe we know they meant to us when they're disappear.

"enjoy your life" eventho you're in trouble, because remember we only live once. and time can't be repeated. maybe when you're in trouble you'll be upset and you want go away from this situation (I also like that). but let's realize! problem is probably a valuable lesson and you should never solve problems with emotions, because if the problems resolved with emotions the problem will getting worse, try to solve problems peacefully then we'll be able to find the best solution of the problem. it's impossible to live without problems but don't forget you have friend who always there for you with any situation. and friend always accepts you just the way you are.

fyi: I♥YOU my friend. and I really do ‎​(˘⌣˘)ε˘`)

thanks bloogie~

everything was going so fast

yeah everything was going so fast. unexpected now I'm 15th and in a matter of days I will turn into 16th. it's not about 16th but it's about how time goes so fast, sometimes I feel I'm too young to handle the problem but in fact I almost stepped on 16th, which means I'm old enough. I feel like I'm not ready to grow into a teenager who will be faced with various problems of life. one thing I know and I believe about problem "problem will make me stronger". 15th years is not a short time, so many things I had learned and I hope I'll be more expert to go through everything in front of me and I can reach all my ambition

bytheway within 3 weeks or until 31 august. my school held a replications week. hopefully I can get high scores. wish me luck amen amen amen

thanks bloogie. you already want to waste your time for reading my blog :3

welcome ramadhan

MARHABAN YA RAMADHAN :)

I want to apologize to everyone if I have mistake. actually I want to apologize to my parents and my brothers but I'm embarrassed to do it HEHEHE (I shouldn't be embarrassed to do it....I'm just too pride). I realized so many mistakes I have done to Allah SWT, to my parents, to my family, to my friend, and to EVERYONE....so please forgive me. kay kay kay? by the way happy fasting!!!! hopefully fasting this year will be better than last year, and we can do it smoothly and accepted by Allah SWT. amen amen amen

thanks bloogie :) ({})

:)

HAUM I don't know what to write on this blog. I'm just a little upset with someone, maybe I'm too selfish and childish. sometimes I feel useless, apparently my friend doesn't need me and I.....desperately need them. maybe you saw me like a friend who is very ignorant and don't want to burden. no I just don't like to think hard, I'll make everything easier. just take it easy take it slow and enjoy with my life, enjoy with my 'problem' too. I'm pretty sure you don't know I feel like this way cause I always cover all of this with 'smile' 'laugh' 'joke' although I'm in big trouble. I feel bad to telling you my story if you didn't ask me. okay that's all

thanks blooogie

promptings of my heart

many 'words' walking in my mind. many 'questions' spinning in my head. I know I'm wrong! I know my heart was wrong! but I can't blame my heart because I don't want it too dude. I always act like nothing's wrong....like everyting's okay, and I always smile although my heart is crying. no one knows what I really feel. I just want through my life with my own way. I don't care what people saying. I'll keep on my way cause it's my life.

holiday

that's some photos from my holidays. it's extremely funnnn. since long long time ago me and my friends make plans to vacation together. and finally we choose to go to spore (I dont know why)......days that we've been waiting finally comeeee. we spent 10days in spore. many new and fun things we do there. they are my friends since I was in junior high school and now I'm not in the same school with them. but this is my longest vacation without my family. 10 dayssss I can't face my mom, my dad, my brothers, how I miss them so damn muchhh. when I was there my internet connection not working uuuu *poorme. but one thing that I hate........unpleasant smell

before holidays I got my report book from school anddddd I could pass my 10th grade it means that I could step up into the 11th grade!!!!! I got science class. I'm very grateful to Allah SWT

thanks bloogie~

Artist

oh I think no one read my freakin blog and actually you read it maybe you read this because you're bored or you dont know what to do and you find this url in everywhere i dont know but maybe in my twitter or my facebook lalala actually it's not important to write this things

now let me share you about my................FAVORITE ARTIST HA HA HAAAA

Zooey Clair Deschanel

I dont know why i like her so muchhhh maybe because she has cute and pretty face. its make me impressed with her

Selena Gomez

and I like her too since she starred in "Another Cinderella Story2" her dance is so amazing and she has a cute face and a unique voice........oooooo how cute she is righttt?

Gemma Arterton

I like her since she starred in "Prince of Persia" in this film she looks so pretty and strong. she acted as princess tamina

Cristiano Ronaldo dos Santos Aveiro

I like him so muchhhh since I was little when I accompany my father watch ball and he looks so handsome and very good football player

David Villa

Justin Bierber

he has a super duper mega hyper ultra cute face and cute voice. he makes me want him soo much I want to pinch him I want to meet him

Channing Tatum

I adore him since he starred in "Step Up" he has bulky body (muscular) and hot face ha ha haaa and in this film the dance very impressive

Jake Gyllenhaal

I like him since he starred in "Prince of Persia" he acted as Prince Dastan. he has a handsome and hot face hahahha and he has muscular body too

thanks~

freakin

I don't know what to write on my freakin blog that may haven't no one who read this. I want to tell you about my high school tread life

yes I know everybody says high school is very exciting, everybody says high school is fun. but for me high school is.........cruel, hard, and of course fun. you know why I say that? because in high school we got a lot of demands and obligation. we must do this this this and sometimes we must do the things we dont want and we dont like. right?

and now let me tell you about what I want and what I need. I need someone who know me and understand me. I need friends who always there when I need. why no one understand me? why? I just want you treat me like I treat you. I just want a fair life. why life is never fair? why life is hard? I always smile like I dont have problem. I dont want my family and my friends sad because my problem.

okay but I've always been grateful to live like this. thanks god thanks family thanks my friends. maybe not all our desires can be achieved and thanks for read my freakin post

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